This is a dream, my decipherment of it and own life experience of studying and experiencing the collective unconsciousness.

This dream I had last night was very special. It all started actually when I watched one specific Desteni video on youtube. It was about masturbation and porn. I was kind of intrigued about the perspective that no1 has brought before even thought it would ring a bell for many as we understand more about the interrelatioship of everything as our reality model is reaching the understanding of a totality as a hologram (sorry for that complicated sounding sentence). In the message masturbation through visual images was linked to actual raping. At that point I had a strong intuituive emotion as I always do when something needs balancing. I understood it to be how people REACTED to strong signals/revelations and if we learn to use words like pointers then I thought we must be prepared to point to balance once people react, not specifically to this topic, but in general. So that once we say something outright and for some harshly, we are responsible for the reaction also. This was my honest idea.

Then I also needed to correct my own thinking and thought about my own responsibility and went to dream..

In a dream I faintly remember confronting a demon/or a person but possessed perhaps.. this demon wanted to put shame on me. But in a dream I immediately understood that this was not right and I battled with it (it was offensive situation, like I have go or it had to go). I stabbed (or something) it.. so it began to die. I got wounded too, but this was healing quite fast back to normal.

Later after some other dreams (-though possibly connected but I'll try to keep this short as possible)-, I saw two people (woman and a man with white textile wrapped around his head) shouting loudly to each other.. they seemed to be a couple who just made a crime. This woman told the man something like "he was not so bad, there was some good in him" and the man loudly responded that NO, that's bullshit, he had to go!.. and I remember so very well feeling the attitude of this man like he was into conspiracies and blindly lost his perspective... (I know deep, true conspiracies, but have not immersed myself into them so to keep the perspective open).. the woman seemed to enjoy this energy (like possessed), sexually even. I felt like this is the problem of mankind.. to focus on triviality and forget the bigger unfoldment of our existance (hence the wrapping of this man?).

Once I was observing the couple (I sometimes and much more lately feel like an observer in my dreams, but especially on this moment) I felt and saw spirals coming out of the sun. They were not perfect, which intrigued me. I walked from the forest to the open field to see... it was calling me for my attention.

This felt really special... the sun morphed into an androgyn, golden being with flaming hair. It looked exactly like the one in the Animatrix animation (in Matriculated).. like this:

http://cubicle.fi/~tripper/stufff/small_pics_anim_pics/animatrix_matriculated_uni_aurinko_310309_snapshot_small.jpg

Just picture this with blue sky and some clouds and neutral in form (in the picture it expresses emotions, the sun was very c00l actually Wink.

Anyways... this figure showed me some moves.. I don't really recall or know what they were for, but I felt receiving something telepathically that the old form (which I feel strongly was connected to dropping the shame/guilt) was dying and the Sun was "incarnating" to a new form and those moves were perhaps some clues or hints how to prepare ourselves. I had my camera with me and lost quite some attention because I wanted to take a picture (at that point I call recall losing my observer-mentality as I was so amazed of it all that I wanted to show it to others). The figure walked towards the horizon.. so the sun set(h).

So I interpret it that we should not feel shame and that we are supported in our bigger quest by some very powerful forces. The sun was a link and a clear hint that we need to prepare ourselves as he will make a new vision/incarnation for us who participate and continue living.

I also read a week or two ago a myspace bulleting titled UNCONSCIOUS GUILT-THE ROOT OF ALL PAIN that I feel was related to this revelation, which you can read here: http://cubicle.fi/~tripper/Cubicle/UNCONSCIOUS_Guilt_is_the_ROOT_of_all_PAIN.doc

... now I started wondering why the spiralling frequencies/special rays were not perfect... (maybe a reminder for myself not to *try* to be perfect, but accept everything as perfect in imperfection.. OR it was a signal that a change was happening and the new shape has not actualized yet)

I'll continue more once I talk with the Sun and if I get some new ideas. Every input also helps and /or if people have seen dreams about the Sun lately?? It could mean something real and this Sun Cycle 24 is about to peak on 2012 and it's one of the strongest cycles in recorded history + the suns spirals started moving backwards some time ago and other intriguing stuff going on... + the solar system is having "a climate change"... I'm mostly interested what is the source affecting the Sun and what is our relationship with it.

Thank you for reading.