When I Give

Lyrics

Why is it always me who break the heart?
Why can't I realize it already from the start,
that you won't be the one to sit in my lap in my final days
that you instead in my eye is a dart?
This last time I do not regret,
This last time I without effort will forget.
But with some I could've shared yet another day
still could, never might.

I'm loosing my sanity and I'm blinded by sunlight.
Sometimes I wish that some evil tumour would kill me

This is not how I expected things to be,
because, when I say ('I love thee')
her eyes turn cold as liquid nitrogen.
Guess it's another failed (chemical reaction)
would that same fail when,
I'd try to corrode my face?

Would it not end my days?
I suffer due to my burnt bridges and empty space.
Come here and strangle me with a velvet lace.
(S'il vous plaît? 3x)

Ref.

Could nothing put an end to this?
I don't know what is happening,
why are things this way?
Why can't we make it simple,
Why is everything so far away?

Would someone just appear
And stimulate my senses?
Before I loose my self
In the things I carry on my shoulders.
I still feel much guilt
I still can't forgive
Myself for being a filth
I still feel much guilt
Why do you have to reject me?
You had better to suffocate me.
If you would give I would take
But when I give you won't take.
IS SOMETHING FUCKED UP WITHIN SKULL, AM I EVEN AWAKE?